One Last

ONE LAST

I never could imagine, life without you
From the moment you walked into my world
Never knew how long a loving flame could burn
But losing you has forced me to learn
That we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus:
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go

Everytime I try to take a stand at all
I see your face again and I fall
In the middle of the night there's the scent of a rose
The smell of your perfume I suppose
But we can't change the way we feel inside
And every try at love never turns out right
We both know it's better if we just let it go
So let's have

Chorus:
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go



Baby if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we share
But it would be too much for us to bear
So let's have

Chorus
One last kiss
One last touch
One last tender moment between us
One last dance
To our first song
While pretending there's nothing wrong
Let's stay here for awhile and
Cherish every moment we're in denial
We both know
Its better if we just let it go



We both know
It's better if we just let it go

Kim Young Woon

Real Name: 김영운 Kim Young Woon
Stage Name: 강인 Kangin
Chinese Name: 強仁 Jiang Ren
Date of Birth: January 17, 1985
Height: 180 cm
Weight: 70 kg
Blood Type: O
Hobbies: watching movies, singing, sports (martial arts), swimming
Casting: 4th SM Youth Best Selection Best Outward Appearance 1st place 2002
First Appearance: May 2002, SBS "A Man And A Woman

A new day

Moi ngay la mot ngay moi, voi nhieu ki niem va nhieu niem vui (noi buon thi tam quen di.. coi nhu no co chi de ta biet .... the nao la vui : D) Doi khi thay minh qua sung suong do co biet bao nguoi yeu thuong, quan tam va cham soc. Mot ngay cua minh nhieu khi duoc danh thuc bang cai radio.. nheo nheo ben tai, nhung doi khi cung la tieng con ban ... goi dt tu phong ke ben, nho va chi chi ay. Co nhung ngay la ac mong do phai doi mat voi ong manager- hinh nhu thich minh hay sao ma suot ngay choc minh hoai... cha lam viec dang hoang duoc j het-- roi chinh ong i lai mang minh vi toi.. lo denh. Co nhung ngay o nha, khong di lam thi lai cam thay qua buon do.. chang ai nhac nho, chang ai choc pha, chang ai moc xia minh.

Nho hoi be.. troi mua dong thich lam: dc mac ao len, quang khan, da trang treo nhu em be Tay nhung lai so lanh lam, lai phai mac bao nhieu ao quan ao, sang troi chi muon trum chan ngu tiep.. Bi gio van the, cu sang sang cung dat dong ho som ca tieng dong ho. Tinh day, nhin dong ho, nhin troi, ngo nhiet do mot ti la lai trum chan.. tu cho phep minh "cai quyen" ngu nuong den.. khi nao day duoc thi thui... The la lai tu excuse cho ban than cai quyen.. lanh the nay, chac ong thay cho nghi.. me biet duoc chac lai.. than troi mat.

Co hom troi mua, nhin mua lai thay nho ban be nhieu nhieu. Mua he la mua mua ma... khong biet bao lan, vua di hoc ra, troi mua, doi me den don, lai ru re dam ban di an vat rui long vong sang cong vien Le Van Tam... choi xich du.. lang man va lang xet nhu Han Quoc ah. Ma nghi lai, cung thay la do bao lan di choi chung voi dam lop 9, chang may khi mua bao h.. Chac la co ma minh voi tui no ham choi nen cung cha.. care bao gio. Mua mua he mat lanh va vui vui, mua ben nay vua co don vua chan, cu mua la minh lai ngo troi, ngo dat , trum chan ngu thui.

Minh thich ngu bi nhieu thi chuyen gia thuc khuya bay nhieu. Doi khi chi la di lang thang tren mang hang gio lien nhung minh cung chang care may.. cu di.. di mai.. lam nhung chuyen khong co muc dich lam. Ngo that, doi khi chi la 84 cents gui thu ve cho moi nguoi... minh lai tiec, the ma ca chuyen di choi ton tien.. vo ly thi cha tiec bao h. Dung la, ng ta lam ra tien thi cang chang tiec. Bo minh noi ma, co di moi co den. Me thi thich mua do tot de dung cho lau, bo thi chang care... do bo thich mua do, me cu tiec tien mai thi bo chang co dip tro tai mua ban.

Anh hai... mot dinh nghia qua quen thuoc voi minh. Ng ma song chung voi minh tu be den lon, va support minh khi minh can. Hom nay moi thay dieu do la sai toet. Ngo nghieng qua trang blog cua chi Huong- ban anh hai- moi thay doi khi anh hai cung con nit va ti ton chang khac gi (chac tai anh em no the.) Vo tinh thoi, minh biet duoc mot A2 be xiu, chuyen hat " Ly ngua o" ca si chinh kiem vu dao, mot anh hai tinh cam va lang man voi "Here without you" tu dem dan va hat. Co the noi minh phai cam on anh hai nhieu...mot nguoi anh hai tuyet voi va het suc chieu em gai.

Sao hom nay minh thay yeu gia dinh minh the. Mot cai gia dinh ma minh tung khoc nhieu... vi cu dem no ra so sanh voi ban be. Mot gia dinh khi o gan nhau ma cai nha dong cua luc 6am va chi nghe tieng nguoi sau 9pm. Mot gia dinh ma me tung be minh bo nha di giua dem khuya vi.. bo. Mot gia dinh ma lam ... nguoi khac... am long khi luon mo rong canh cua cho tat ca moi nguoi- tu nguoi ban cua anh hai, den nhung nguoi ba con chua lan gap mat. Mot cay moi hoa, moi nha moi canh... Va tu do, no ra nhung bong hoa rat dep (minh ne chu ai :))

Cam on bo me.

Everyday I love u

EVERYDAY I LOVE YOU
Boyzone
I don't know but I believe
That some things are meant to be
And that you'll make a better me
Everyday I love you
I never thought that dreams came true
But you showed me that they do
You know that I learn something new
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul.
It's a touch when I feel bad
It's a smile when I get mad
All the little things I am
Everyday I love you
Everyday I love you boy
Everyday I love you
'Cos I believe that destiny
Is out of our control (don't you know that I do)
And you'll never live until you love
With all your heart and soul
If I asked would you say yes?
Together we're the very best
I know that I am truly blessed
Everyday I love you
And I'll give you my best
Everyday I love you

MỖI NGÀY EM YÊU ANH NHIỀU HƠN
Em không biết chắc nhưng em tin rằng
Có vài điều anh định làm cho em
Và anh sẽ khiến em tốt đẹp, hạnh phúc hơn
Và mỗi ngày em yêu anh nhiều hơn
Em chưa từng nghĩ rằng những giấc mơ kia sẽ trở thành sự thật
Nhưng anh đã cho em thấy rằng một ngày kia chúng sẽ đến
Anh biết là em đang được biết đến một điều thật mới lạ
VÀ mỗi ngày em yêu anh nhiều hơn
Bởi vì em tin rằng số mệnh kia nằm ngoài sự kiểm soát của đôi ta (Anh không biết rằng em tin như vậy ư?)
Và anh sẽ chẳng bao giờ sống cho đến khi anh biết yêu bằng tất cả trái tim và linh hồn mình.
Đó là một cái khẽ chạm của anh khi em cảm thấy tồi tệ
Đó là một nụ cười của anh khi em nổi giận về những chuyện tầm thường trong em
Chúng đã xoa dịu đi mọi nỗi dau và buồn phiền trong em
Và mỗi ngày em yêu anh nhiều hơn!
Nếu em đề nghị anh điều gì liệu anh sẽ nói câu đồng ý?
Và cùng với nhau chúng ta là một đôi rất tuyệt
Em biết rằng em thật sự sung sướng
Vì mỗi ngày em được yêu anh
Và em sẽ cho anh tất cả những gì tốt đẹp nhất đời em
Rồi mỗi ngày em sẽ yêu anh nhiều hơn!

Có lẽ chẳng bao giờ mình thật sự cảm nhận được bài hát này nếu không có nó. Nhiều khi chỉ là những cảm xúc rất lạ của tình cảm đầu đời nhưng càng ngày nó càng làm mình suy nghĩ nhiều.

Mà hình như áh, mình càng nghĩ, càng rối, càng lờ tờ mờ... và hình như tất cả chỉ quay lại điểm khởi hành. Chán!! Tình cảm chẳng như mấy kiểu bơi khó, chịu khó tập và quan sát là học được; cũng chằng như đối đầu với cầu thủ bóng rổ to con hơn, nếu mình có kĩ thuật tốt có thể điều khiển bóng tốt và vượt qua; tình cảm không đẹp và lãng mạn như truyện, cũng chẳng có công chúa xinh đẹp va hòang tử tài năng thật lòng yêu thương một người và " they live happily ever after." ;tình cảm lại chẳng như cà phê, qua khỏi vị đắng là ngọt ngào và mát lạnh... Khó hiểu nhỉ, vậy sao mình lại chọn tình yêu lên trên bơi lội, truyện tranh và càfê nhỉ???

just another day,

What will you think of the time and life changing? I don't know. I have been old enough to behave as an adult but seem like I never think as a grow up person. I'm so childlish and selfish. Sometimes, I even question myself why would I come this far and decide not to do anything to make it better. Life has always been easy and flow for me. I did make mistake, felt down, stand up but I just never learn. I don't work hard as I should and just so confident that someone always there for me.

I can concentrate and try so hard for such useless things and work carelessly for the important one. Open a book and fall asleep just 5' after that has become a habit for me. But why, I can stick 3 hrs straight just to read a novel. Maybe I am weird. It takes less than 30' to read the assignment and 1hr to do it but I never do until the last minute. How's about comic? Oh, yeah, I don't think u can keep my face out of there just for 5' even I have read it a thousand times.

I wonder a lot about what will become of me but never do something to change that fact. I can work so hard for my job but can never pay enough attention to the lecture. They said it typical but I think it's not since I not genius who can read something once and remember it right away or who don't do the homeworks but still firgue out how to do the test, and I neither the one can study by myself and not listen to lecture nor I can smart guess for whatever the teacher gave.

I have try my best to get myself back in place but I don't feel right. I wake up at 8.00 everyday and go to bed at 12.00. Normal but not right for me who usually don't go to bed all night long and still awake enough to get myself in class and back to the dorm, sleep straingth for 4-5hrs and wake up to work and back to the dorm, doing nothing untill the time come. Am I stupid or not?

Wish nobody read it.

A stranger in a familiar place

I came back home. This was the day I had long awaited. Why did it seem unusual? I was there, standing in my own country, freely talking in my language, but it was not the same. Not only my friends and my family were different, but I was as well. Knowing the change in myself, I was still surprised. Maybe time changed people.

Home sweet home is there. After a long time, I was able to get back to what I used to do: reading and enjoying my mom’s home-made food every day. Despite all the amazing meals I had in America, my mother’s white rice, chicken soup and fried spinach with fish sauce were still the best. One time, my mother tried to make some mashed potatoes and gravy, because she thought I would be familiar with them, somehow. It was not one of her best, but the taste of a family’s meal, the care of my mother, and the cozy atmosphere made the meal wonderful.

Sometimes, I could sit around the kitchen, hear the television, and watch my mother prepare diner while she asked me this and that. It felt so warm inside. I was astonished at these little normal things that I had never acknowledged. Before, I had only rushed home because of a time-conflict with my favorite television show and avoided helping with housework. Now, I drove my mother home every time I could, and saved as much time as possible to be around my house, around my family. I sensed my mother’s aging and felt so much responsibility. Was I different than the old me, or had I just grown up?

As time passed, there were a lot of alterations in life. Not long after I had left, Vietnam started to use coins and new paper money which looked a lot like Euro. The value of paper money became larger, and the price was changed dramatically. Once, I went out to the market for food. The price was a huge shock to me. I did not know when I should bargain, when I should not. I came back with full ingredients but with a double price than normal. When I came home, my father just busted into laughter, and my brother even told me “good job.” My mother comforted me and “asked” me not to help anymore. It was a strange feeling since I felt like crying and laughing at the same time. But I found it was exciting to learn the news from the old things. Time transformed things, little by little.

Among all of changes, sight-seeing was the most significant. House after house were built and corporate buildings emerged. There were no place for natural scenes anymore. Before I left, I used to play around a small land close to my house. There were all my childhood friends including the kid next door, the sister's neighbor, the classmates, and the wind, the land. It was my precious memories of “home.” Now, the land was still there, just as a new house was placed over that, covered most of the land and blocked the range of the wind. I felt surprised for a moment and the rest was depressed. There would be no more long-nights-of-cricket’s voices, no more discover of the natural’s wonders. And there would be no place for the kite to play with the wind. Still, it remained the paradise I dreamed of.

Coming home, wishing I can be a little girl again, my parents did not think so. Time to time, I was treated as an acquaintance guest more than a daughter. We had a lot of fun time, but a moment or two, it was odd. I was the youngest daughter so my voice had never opposed anyone. Now, if something happened, my parents would ask for my opinions. It made me feel like a kid for a time since my parents asked too many questions. But for other times, I just felt so proud because my parents had admitted me as an adult.

To be able to identify as an adult was good. I did not have to set up table before diner, clean dishes after the meal, or wash clothes during the weekend. Also, I found more pressure and responsibility. For example, finding a job with me the year before as consided impossible and undisputed. Last summer, my mother even encouraged me to find a part-time job. I learned how to manage, to save my own salary the first time and to make the most of the job.

Not only that, my parents even changed their habits just because I was home. It was a radical improvement for them. Normally, my father did not go home before 10 p.m. even in the weekend. Since I came back, he got home earlier and spent more time at home with family. I did not think it was a bad idea. But eventually, I did not know how to interact with my father, so I avoided going home early. I like my father, unless he talked about my education. It was pressure for me to face him about my future which I was not sure. The way he talked so straight forward was hurtful. Maybe I grew up to be apart and independent from my parents. Even though I missed them a lot, I would never allow myself to bring up that idea. So now, it was like I ran away from the home again. I love to be at home and not to be at home at the same time. I felt like check-in to my own home.

So, where would you be if you were not at home or being alone? You would be together with friends or doing some things with friends, right? That was when all the fun began. My friends could talk non-stop, all day long, about different types of MP3s, cell phones, laptops or any other significant electronic devices. A few first times, I was amazed how much they know about this stuff; now it was kind of boring. I felt lost in their conversation, not only because some new terms that they had, but also the topic they discussed. Did my friends change, or did I become a visitor from time to time?

Since it was a little hard for me to adopt the news, I felt comfortable to be with the past. I love to gather around with friends at my old school. That feeling was so fresh, so new that I couldn’t describe it. The old school still lingered, the class was still full of secrets signs from here to there, and still were our dear teachers. Time showed in their faces, in their white hair, but nothing can change the love they had for us. I had grown up a lot, but in front of them, I felt like the small girl on the first day of class.

Through all these old places, I learned some of the popular latest shop. Passing by the old street with the new name, I hardly heard any familiar songs. But in the end, no matter how much time had passed, it was still an amazing time to talk about the past with your friends – the topic which would never be old and always filled me with more memories. I could be a stranger with some new members, but with my old friends, I was part of their beloved memories. Especially, it was fun to be able to introduce myself in front of the people who already know me well.

After nine months, I could not wait to go back. But the moment I was there, I felt like something had been changed. I was changed by my new life in America. My friends were changed by continuing life in Vietnam. Some changes were good; some changes were bad. Some reminded me the past; some made me older. I was glad I could experience this feeling. The feeling ensured me about the future. No matter what I would do, no matter whom I would become, no matter how changed my country would be, there will always a “home” for me to come back to for pleasure and for determining the new things in the old place.

Friends

"Little faith brightens a rainny day.Life is difficult, you can't go away. DOn't hide yourself in the corner, you have my place to say.

Sorrow is gonna say goodbye, open up you'll see a happy sunshine. keep going on with your dream, chasing tommorow sunsrise, the siirit can't never die.

Sun will shine, my friends. Won't let you cry, my dear. Seeing your tear, make my world disappear. You never be alone in darkness. See my smile, we are with you holding hands. You have God to believe, you are my destiny. We meant to be your friends. That's what a friendship should be."

Cánh diều

Hồi bé, mình cứ tin nếu thả điều ước bay lên trời cùng những cánh diều, biết đâu đấy nó sẽ thành hiện thực. Vì ngày ấy, diều bay hùng dũng trên trời cũng như chứng minh cho mình thấy, dù trong thành phố bận rộn này, vẫn có những trò chơi dân gian mà không bất cứ ngành công nghệ phát triển nào có thể phá bỏ.

Trở lại những năm bé thơ của mình bằng cánh diều nhỏ xinh. Năm ấy, cầu Sắt bị đập đi, còn cầu Bùi Hữu Nghĩa hiện nay thì vẫn đang xây dựng. Khi ấy, hai bên cầu chưa nối nhau, khi ấy, mỗi bên cầu là nơi tụ tập của đám con nít, dựa thành cầu cao, dựa gió lồng lộng của chiều hè để đấy cánh diều lên.

Nhóm mình khi ấy có mấy đứa con nít với nhau, đứa nào đứa nấy khờ ra mặt, thấy diều bay lồng lộng từ ban công chung cư nhưng nào biết làm, cũng nhìn tiếc hùi hụi. Rồi không hiểu sao, ai bảo ai, ai hỏi ai, chúng mình cũng dạy nhau làm diều, mon men ra bờ cầu ngổn ngang, lóm lém học nghề từ bọn con nít hàng xóm. Rồi từ đấy, diều mình cũng bay lên, cùng tre, cùng giấy và cùng niềm tự hào trẻ con. Nào những cánh bướm, những con mắt diều tung bay trong gió, như phút hãnh diện tự hào dù bọn mình nhem nhuốm, dù mồ hôi ướt áo để diều bay cao.

Nhưng thế đấy, mùa hè ghi sâu trong tôi. Mùa hè của những cánh diều.

Rồi mình lớn lên, hai bờ cầu nối nhau, đường phố mọc như mắc cửa, gần như cánh diều bị lãng quên. Thế mà, năm rồi, về qua nhà đứa bạn bên Quận 8, mình lại thấy diều, rất nhiều.. vẫn như ngày xưa ấy thôi, bên đống ngổn ngang của những công trình cao tầng, những cánh diều vẫn bay lên. Như mình bé xưa, tự hào nắm giữ cánh diều bé xinh mang những mơ ước nhỏ xíu chất đầy trên lưng giấy, dù mưa gió, dù diều không bay cao hay tệ hơn là lạc mất, vẫn từ từ làm lại cánh khác, để ước mơ lại bay, để mình vẫn hiên ngang nhìn trời, hứng gió trong cái thành phố này.

“Trả lại cho em cánh diều thơ ấu

Chất chứa đầy những kí ức tuổi thơ,

Trả cho em niềm tự hào nho nhỏ

Ngước nhìn trời trong lúc khó khăn qua…”

Thuỳ Dương