What will you think of the time and life changing? I don't know. I have been old enough to behave as an adult but seem like I never think as a grow up person. I'm so childlish and selfish. Sometimes, I even question myself why would I come this far and decide not to do anything to make it better. Life has always been easy and flow for me. I did make mistake, felt down, stand up but I just never learn. I don't work hard as I should and just so confident that someone always there for me.
I can concentrate and try so hard for such useless things and work carelessly for the important one. Open a book and fall asleep just 5' after that has become a habit for me. But why, I can stick 3 hrs straight just to read a novel. Maybe I am weird. It takes less than 30' to read the assignment and 1hr to do it but I never do until the last minute. How's about comic? Oh, yeah, I don't think u can keep my face out of there just for 5' even I have read it a thousand times.
I wonder a lot about what will become of me but never do something to change that fact. I can work so hard for my job but can never pay enough attention to the lecture. They said it typical but I think it's not since I not genius who can read something once and remember it right away or who don't do the homeworks but still firgue out how to do the test, and I neither the one can study by myself and not listen to lecture nor I can smart guess for whatever the teacher gave.
I have try my best to get myself back in place but I don't feel right. I wake up at 8.00 everyday and go to bed at 12.00. Normal but not right for me who usually don't go to bed all night long and still awake enough to get myself in class and back to the dorm, sleep straingth for 4-5hrs and wake up to work and back to the dorm, doing nothing untill the time come. Am I stupid or not?
Wish nobody read it.
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